Saturday, January 21, 2017

Lawless, faithless

"He who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. And if you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also gazes into you."
- Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil

Caught between two worlds of polar opposites.

One where you roam free, and follow your heart's desire at every whim, where you live in the moment and go with the flow and your instincts, with not a care in the world of the consequences that come after.

One where the line between independence, and recklessness and stupidity, becomes ever more blurred, more often than not melding into one and the same.

One where brute, affectionless force is used to make your way in a dog eat dog world, in both your public and private life.

Where the end result of the achievement of your goals justifies the means by which you pursued them.

And then, there's the Other.

Where you pause at every turn and corner, hesitate and think twice.

Where everything is a make-or-break decision from which there's no turning back; for once you gaze into the abyss, it gazes back into you.

It's anarchy, on an invisible plane, on an incomprehensible level.

You're caught between the rules of the two; you're lawless.

You're caught between the beliefs of the two; you're faithless.

And you can't reconcile them, no matter how hard you try.

One wrong, foolish, impulsive move, and you become the very thing that you fight.

Down the road to perdition. The path of no return.

Where you lose yourself, and you can't find your way back.